Single again, but was I alone?

Word got out that James and I had broken up... Me being a girl-next-door kind of vibe, had some interested fellas... However, it's not that easy to catch my eye. Not that I'm a picky girl... There's just something a guy has to have, this fire in his eyes, that can show me I make his knees tremble... God, I'm starting to sound a bit cocky. I'm not, I promise :) I'm actually super conscious about myself and have a very low self esteem... I guess that's why I feel the need for that kind of attention:cause that external validation from someone worthy, makes me feel powerful.


One of the interested guys was a friend that I had met at a wedding a couple of years before, even before James. He had that surfer vibe - tan and chill - but at the same time, he was kind of posh. Plus he had this naughty smile to die for. So you knew he was a bad guy. We started chatting again, and it wasn't long before he invited me for coffee. Surprisingly enough (or not) coffee turned into 'chill at his house' cause he wanted to show me his paintings - he had recently started painting. He already played the guitar btw. 

So I get to his house and he shows me his 'artwork' and i'm not gonna lie - it was bad! Of course I didn't say that to him though! I have always been a cheerleader for everybody else... And he says he had painted one specifically for me and he wanted me to have it. it was a painting with a cupid on it... It was so bad! OMG! Of course it's the thought that counts, so I happily took it. To this day I still have it stored away in a box somewhere!

So he obviously thought he would have me for sure with this move. I mean this is the same guy that had already called me one day at night time and started playing Heaven from Bryan Adams, and I'm not gonna lie, for the first couple of minutes I thought it was him playing cause he could play and had a nice voice. Painting nevertheless, was not his forte.

So we went to his room and I can tell you right now that the most that this player got was some kisses and maybe some over-the-shirt action. I'm guessing all his player skills just killed the mood for me. And it was a good thing too cause later I found that he had had some make out sesh with one of my closest friends!

I'm still friends with him on facebook/insta and I can tell you that damn he looks hot!.. I mean all them chocolates in his abbs... A girl could lose her mind in those. However, I still think he doesn't deserve to be an addition to my 'corpses list'. I don't think he respects me (or any girls for that matter) enough and for me that is a big no-no. I mean I'm the girl who is always up for anything, but if the guy doesn't respect me enough, he ain't getting a piece of this. Be a bad guy, I don't care (I may even prefer it), but don't be a player: don't lie about it...    

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